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February 20th, 2005
09:14 am - good times
well lets start with valentine's day which was the best ever. Nikki and I decided canada would be a good call on valentines day. Our hotel had the worst bartended who made proably the grossest long island ever she put tonic water in it gross. Alot of the bars were closed which kind of sucked but it was still alot of fun. We always seem to pick the wrong lines at customs on our way home. Oh well it was the greatest valentines day ever. The other night i went to the rodeo with nikki and her family and it was alot of fun. It was the first rodeo i went to since i was like 13 i think. But it was alot of fun thanks for takin me baby =). sorry for getting lost on the way home =(. well time to go off to work dam it =(.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/blank.gif) blah
Current Music: The Banner
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November 17th, 2004
07:30 am - CANADA
Nov 26 Canada My 20th birthday whos coming?
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October 15th, 2004
06:12 pm - Happy Happy Joy Joy Happy Happy Joy Joy
Joy......tonight is canada for nikki's 19th and its gonna be fucking awesome. On top of that its also our 5 month so today is a really awesome day. Class has been pretty good. I just can't wait for class to be over and it to be summer again. Me and Nikki have to start planning our amsterdam trip soon because i really want to go. It would be the trip of my dreams. We want to goto amsterdam and london for like 3 or 4 days in amsterdam and 3 or 4 days in london. This weekend is going to totally own all. Canada tonight i got tomorrow off so i can spend the day recovering from tonight. The countdown for San Andreas Begins!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/happy.gif) happy
Current Music: Rise Against - Swing Life Away
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September 28th, 2004
10:39 am - We Will Burn Forever
everything has been so perfect. School has been going pretty good. I've actually been going to school. I've only missed one class all semester which isnt too shabby for me. Me and nikki are going to be planning an amsterdam trip which will be the shit! I can't wait but the question is when? But somehow i have to come up with the money. Maybe a second job? who knows. well off to work i go
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/yawn.gif) tired
Current Music: Pink floyd - wish you were here
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July 15th, 2004
12:48 am - i killed a man with a trident
Well right now im waiting for nikki to get off work so we can chill for like an hour maybe? who knows damn it and her working late even though its only the 2nd time but itys awesome cuz i get to see her after she gets of work because its close by. but everything in my life lately has been awesome. Ive been working alot lately and me and nikki have still been managing to hang out plenty well kids im off to wait to see nikki =)
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Simpsons
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June 27th, 2004
09:38 am - Hellfest 2004
Anyone want to goto New Jersey for july 23-25 for hellfest?
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: LTJ - ghost of me and you
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June 22nd, 2004
12:52 pm - Love me 2 times
ive been quite busy lately its been absurd im really glad i dont have to deal with that class right now because i wouldnt be able to. Ive been working damn near close to 40 hours weeks and manage to get as much girlfriend time as possible =). Last night we saw the terminal which was very very disappointing it had no point to me it was just dumb. I should of seen dodge ball but its all good im seeing that tonight after this battle of the bands thingy im goin to with nikki tonight at emagine. Wednesday is the Hawthorne Heights/Silverstein show and im pretty sure im going i think. I'll have to check my financial situation before hand. Well everything is still perfect except for the lack of spare time but hey im making more money then i was so hell yea =)
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Hawthorne Heights - Niki Radio
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June 9th, 2004
June 4th, 2004
12:33 pm - i love my life haha
damn everything is great right now well i cant complain about anything except for the whole school thing but thats in the past ha. no more mullet head teacher. well i went to the zoo the other day with nikki and it rocked. the penguins kick so much ass i am gonna hijack a penguin one of these days from that place well not really. Me and nikki have been hanging out pretty much everyday and i have yet to get sick of her we hung out for 11 hours straight the other day it was great. Last night i went out to the condo which i really should do more often it was fuckin crazy with a police chopped circling last night. im off to work then hopefully more nikki time =)
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Get Up Kids - The Lion and The Lamb
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June 1st, 2004
02:22 am - You're so Cool
ive realized i have nothing to complain about i could use more money but eh im not that broke. Ive been spending most of my time with nikki and its been sweet i cant complain! Saturday night we went out to the demf and it was a great. well work has sucked but thats nothing new. hmm more to come
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: KMK
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May 26th, 2004
08:27 am
If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.
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May 17th, 2004
10:11 am
heres my rewording "never update while you are stoned"
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Funeral for a friend
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May 15th, 2004
01:40 pm - what an amazing night
well last night was fuckin awesome me and nikki are offically together and its awesome =) details later
time to pass out
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: FATA
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May 13th, 2004
10:54 am
how fucked up is it that they found a guy in the back of an suv stabbed 5 times in the back in the sub i pretty much live in
Current Music: Atreyu - The Curse
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May 11th, 2004
01:49 am - Save the world lose the girl
today has been a bummer of a day damn
sorry to anyone i didnt call back
I wouldnt know who to call anyways
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sob.gif) lonely
Current Music: Atreyu
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April 24th, 2004
12:49 am
is there such thing as a truely single girl!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/livid.gif) angry
Current Music: Hobbit time yo
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April 18th, 2004
09:34 am - Your my Boy Blue!
Well its been a long while since ive been on this crazy contraption....whats new....hmmm... i got blue hair now which i think is sweet. Everything is falling together very nicely.
Look what happens when i
I didnt think it was possible for a 3 year old to have a sex drive but according to this they do
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/balloon.gif) high
Current Music: Slipknot - Duality
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09:18 am
I AM 61% PUNK ROCK!  The intelligent punk. Tuff and Smart. I may be able to maintain a train of thought long enough... What the fuck was I talking about? |
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March 19th, 2004
March 8th, 2004
08:43 am
I really dont want to go to class this morning afternoon or night.......who wants to pretend they are me and goto my classes.....im willing to pay good money.....$1 per class
So this i girl is super hot and super cool and i like her alot but i miss her. I cant stop thinkin about her.
Current Music: Something Corporate - Straw Dog
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March 5th, 2004
01:07 am
Well tomorrow is friday night and who wants to hang out with peter
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February 24th, 2004
11:32 pm
Well the other day i was peeing at occ and they had those fuckin crazy auto flushers and it flushed 3 times in one pee...........what the fuck is up with that.
Current Music: Away From here - Poison Arrows
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February 23rd, 2004
11:46 am
Well the mest concert in GR was fuckin sweet show but getting there was a bitch. We got halfway there from state when carl realized he left the tickets at state so we had to drive all the way back to get them and we missed dynamite boy....of coarse i miss the one band that played i havent seen live. Then driving home was an even worse trip. Carl went 40 miles in the wrong direction because he was on his cell phone with his girl friend. So we almost ended up at the Indiana border i think. We realized we fucked up at about Fennville whereever the fuck that is. the show got out at 930 and i didnt get home til damn near 1 all because we took the scenic wrote and then went back and saw the scenic route again. Matchbook romance was fuckin sweet they finished with Promise and the Greatest fall. They should play tiger lily one of these days at a detroit show. Fall out boy was also fuckin sweet. To be honest the opening bands are the reason i went. Mest is cool and all with all the 14yr olds that were at the show. All the girls went fuckin crazy when mest said the "this one goes out to good charlotte".............TRL what what.....fuck trl. and when i was up in the pit there was this fuckin kid who looked like a 7 ft version of crackow from My so called life and the fucker kept elbowing me in the same spot in the back of my neck.......even when i moved to a different spot he still managed to do it........fuck you crackow your character sucks and so do you. and i didnt goto class this morning cuz i have to write a fuckin cause and effect paper and i suck at it. fuck school i can seem to focus on it.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Give up the Ghost
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January 13th, 2004
04:06 am - if all good things come to an end then what about the bad?
Well i started school today. I seem to like the royal oak campus a good deal more then i liked the orcahrd ridge campus which i hated. Thank god parking isnt that much of a pain in the ass. My profs this semester seem to be pretty fuckin cool.
I wonder what this semester will bring hopefully better then the last so we shall see
Lata folks
Mr Zack D - Suck this if you want to get high
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/thoughtful.gif) contemplative
Current Music: The Killing Tree - Pillow Talk
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January 4th, 2004
03:46 am - a shot rains down in the night
I feel like this past year has been so much to me but it really hasnt thats just me living somewhere else
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Thursday
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January 1st, 2004
10:27 am
LiveJournal Slut Score for  poetictragedy22 |
| Percentage of your friends you've met |
71.74% |
| Percentage of your friends you've kissed |
8.70% |
| Percentage of your friends you've sexed |
13.04% |
| Percentage of your friends you fancy |
2.17% |
| Slut points |
72 |
| (Based on 46 LiveJournal friends) |
| Take the LJ Slut Test by skx comment here. |
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December 31st, 2003
10:10 pm
Fuck New Years
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/sad.gif) depressed
Current Music: Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb
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December 29th, 2003
December 18th, 2003
December 11th, 2003
01:37 am - As i sit i ponder
I thought i was doing just fine and everything was gonna be ok
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Plain White T's - Radios In Heaven
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December 3rd, 2003
05:25 pm
happy bday manda!
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November 30th, 2003
12:28 am
i fuckin hate thanksgiving just because i always have to see the people i really do not like. But i did hear from my bro later in the night which was pretty sweet b/c i havent heard from him in a while. well i have way 2 much on my mind right now that i dont want to type in here
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/annoyed.gif) annoyed
Current Music: 06 Aqueous Transmission.shn
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November 26th, 2003
05:20 pm
19 down a few more to go
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November 20th, 2003
01:52 am - i hope that i will never let you down
i was gonna write something but i changed my mind.
End of Transmission
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Thrice - Artist in the Ambulence
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November 11th, 2003
12:41 am
is there anyone out there? Does anyone care? Or shall i go on like this alone ?
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/pengies/wideeyed.gif) awake
Current Music: 3EB
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November 10th, 2003
12:51 am - as the world falls apart Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go I need some more time to fix this
well its been a while since my last update and i dont really know what to say. Im trying to be happy but something is just plain missing in my life. I just want to feel whole once again but feel almost as if that is impossible. On a happier note of life im almost free and i can drive again pretty soon which will rock my socks off. I might be getting a job with sarah at Naturalizer at 12 oaks which would rock. Money is always good. Blink 182 is this week as is story of the year which are both going to be sweet shows there is no denying this. I gotz tuesday, wednesday, saturday and sunday off this week from work so hell yea to that. Im thinkin about doing something fuckin rad to my hair just debating between a few things any thoughts would be nice
A Mohawk bleached white
Or keeping everything the same but dying everything white with black streaks and i do not mean blonde i mean just white. Blonde will not cut it for me.
Oh yes i gotz a precopy of the new blink 182 cd which fuckin rocks and yet i still plan on buying it when it comes out because im a sucker like that. the cd is sweet and i feel i have no problem buying a sweet cd. well im out for the night who knows when i will update again if i ever do.
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Blink 182 - I miss you
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October 30th, 2003
10:18 am
Tyler Durden
The main man- Knows what he wants and how he's
going to get it.
Which Fight Club character are you?
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October 29th, 2003
12:48 am
poetic tragedy
which song by THE USED are you?
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You're Bert! Bert is ass-kicking. He sings/screams
and he's really cool and he was dating kelly
osbourne but then he dumped her over the phone.
but they got matching heart tattoos on their
fingers but thats just too bad because they
broke up. she's angry now and calls him a
jackass. shes stupid though, dont mind her. and
bert has a cool nose, but its not nearly as
great as quinns. but bert is hotter. but thats
okay i love quinn more. um yeah. okay thats it.
What member of the Used are you?
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October 24th, 2003
02:14 am - will god turn agaisnt me instead of taking pity on a broken man?
Last night wsa the ASL/MCR show and it fuckin rocked. I have a new found love for Murder by death and Vaux was cool. It was jason's first hardcore show and he had a good time. Im glad for that fact. Well i got my paper back today in film class that i thought i fucked up on hardcore because it was supposed to be 4-5 pages and i thought 3-5 so i made mine barely 3. Yet i still got a fuckin badass grade on it........i got a 87/96 which i dont think isnt to shabby considering it was a page shorter then it was supposed to be. Well My Chemical Romance played one of my fav songs and one of the songs that seems to hit me really hard lately and that is demo lovers. I couldnt help but think of the girl while standing in front row trying to fend off ppl try to get me out front row is what i wanted and it is what i got but that song just hits me really hard because when i used to listen to it all the time all i did was think of her but it was sweet to see them play it live because ive seen them live 4 or 5 times and they have played that song twice including last night.
This weekend i am going to try to work a 24 hour shift at work which is gonna be hell but its also lots of money which i need.
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Murder By Death - Devil In Mexico
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October 21st, 2003
04:43 pm
Hey kiddos i got a new sn the sn is as followes A Static Crisis
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02:15 pm
well well well TCM was sweet. I saw it thursday night with John, Sam, and Eric. Then we ended up having a grown up slumber party til about 4 in the morning at the theatre just chillin tellin stories and what not. then went out to Rams horn and i ended coming home at about 6am.....followed by waking up at 1030. Cedar point was fun also the next day besides the fact getting home at about 4 and having to wake up at 7 for that community service bullshit which is all over with finally. Hmm what else i hate sweetest day fuck hallmark and their bullshit holidays so they can make more money. ill update later but this is all for now
Current Music: A Static Lullaby - Song for a broken heart
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October 15th, 2003
01:49 am - Douse myself in gasoline.so dont save me when you come into the fire
And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic.
But when I say let's keep in touch,
I really mean I wish that you'd grow up.
Well today was a day of completely nothingness. I woke up went to costco with jp to drop off his application and then we went to best buy so i could spend more money on texas chainsaw massacre and Matrix Reloaded. Ive been so bothered by people lately and i just want them to all go away. Why are people so fuckin stupid i just cant understand it. I hope things start to change. Ive just been feeling so lonely and empty and i can't stand the feeling. I miss her so much that it hurts. I just want the pain to all go away. I wish i had one more chance maybe go back to the beginning and live it all over again. Back when i was happy and everything was perfect and just skip the part where everything came crashing down. All a person needs in life is love but love hurts ......it hurts real bad.
Just leave my heart on the floor i have no need for it
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Silverstein
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October 12th, 2003
02:45 pm
What the hell is up with everyone being so lame lately. ick its been bugging me. it hasnt been everyone just certain people. but on a better nnote going up to state last night which was pretty fun but yea tonight is the drive thru invasion tour wiht carl which is goin to kickass. i cant wait to hear them play new music if they play new music but i assume they will.
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Jackie Brown
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October 6th, 2003
10:26 am
You are... Edward Scissorhands - "I'm not
finished..."
You have a low self-esteem, but a golden heart.
Sometimes you can be a little naieve, but it
has become one of your endearing qualities. You
value the lives of your loved ones and acn find
beauty in almost anything... now all you need
to do is find beauty in yourself.
What movie quote are YOU?
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October 4th, 2003
07:32 am - Lost broken and bruised
I think i am actully dying =(. Last night at work i started to feel really weak and then when i finally got home and in bed i still felt really achy and had the chills and shit. It definately sucked and still does. And now i have to go do work and not get paid for it in the work program. I think i have anthrax. because i really am dying. I wish it would all just go away. Well work last night kind of sucked but ashley came and hung out and gave me a ride home so i didnt have to get a ride from my parents which was cool. Anyone want to just chill with me and watch movies tonight when i get home because i dont know if i can go out without dying. it doesnt help things much i dont feel very good physically or mentally. Im fuckin falling apart and no matter what i do nothing seems to change. maybe this anthrax will make things easy
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Tool
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October 2nd, 2003
01:54 am - well im not sure about so much shit right now
well there has been alot going on in my life lately i just feel overwelmed. I feel like i am running around in cirlces. I miss everyone who left me to goto school. I wish things were different like they were pack in the day. I just feel so down and out and im not sure why. Somebody fix me. i just want to be ok again, but im far from ok. i just feel dead and no matter how i try to revive my self nothing seems to help. Ive been feeling so depressed and i just want it all to end. I dont want to feel this way. I want to feel happy and good again. Im feelin the way i used to when i was all fucked up and didnt give a shit about anything but i do care i just dont know if i can figure out how to care again. I just want the past to go away because i hate my past. I did so many stupid things i just wish i could erase and pretend they didn't happen. Fuck the past and the future its all useless
Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you.
Incubus - 11am
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Incubus - 05_11_AM.wav
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September 26th, 2003
04:10 pm
What if scientists came to the conclusion that all life on earth was goin to end in 2 months what would happen? How would life change? Would people start truely living life or just pretend its not really gonna happen and go about their everyday? or would people stop going to work and do all the things they always wanted to but never had the balls to follow through on it. But now add another big what if. What if after the 2 months the world didn't end would things return to normal? Would everyone return to their everyday routines or would they continue to live up their life while they could.
Current Music: Matchbook Romance
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September 23rd, 2003
11:46 pm
Well life lately has been up and down i have my good days and my bad. All I know is i still think about her all the time. Im just tryin to hold onto the hope that it isnt completely over and that love will always find away but i have my doubts about love. I can still see clearly all the great days we had. I remember covering for you when me and you went to the zoo and had an awesome day there. I remember the first time we ever talked. I remember the day sarah was hanging in the box office with me and told me you had a crush on me and not even believing it was true. All the days of cuddling up in my room and watching movies just enjoying ourselves together and not having any complaints about the world. Or even the days you would always get sick and all i wanted to do was kiss you on your forehead and hope it would make everything better. I would do anything to get you to feel better. I still remember the beginning of the relationship in front of good ole bubs house. Or stopping by commerce just to see you. Even one of the first days we ever started to get close and picking you up from commerce and hearing kate and sarah yell awwww. Everything just seemed like a fantasy to me. Everyone who told me we looked so cute together and brushing it off but thinking in my head i knew it was perfect. Or on prom when you looked stunning and i felt like a god being by your side. it hurts me to know all this is in the past i wish i could go back and live all those moments all over again. Just fall asleep and feel that all over again over and over. I remember even though i worked in a different theatre i would do what i could to make sure i saw all the sneaks at commerce just so i could be with you. I took all that time for granted. I wish i wouldnt have....i wish i could have stopped just for a second to realize at that point my life was as perfect as life can get and thats all that mattered now lookin in from the outside i cant help but think this really cant be the end can it. perfect things dont end but this isnt a perfect world. This is a world for in a second everything can all come crashing down. I just wish i could see what has yet to come good and bad and i really hope it is good even though there is really only one great thing i would ever ask for and that is for the girl
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Tool
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